i’m so tired i’m about to go to sleep before 11 by choice. but i just realized i have to change into my pj’s and it’s taking… so much… energy…
on a somewhat related note, taking a trip with Discover Outdoors if you’re in NYC is highly recommended
also, one of the things people don’t seem to get is the difference between what i value and what they value. they value saving money and convenience but to me convenience is defined differently. i’ll spend more money to take care of myself and not get in people’s way. it’s not saving money if i don’t feel at home and i feel like people are suffering because of me. there are times when i’m a major asshole for no reason. the various aspects of my life will combine in a unique way to create a tiny storm and i’ll just be unpleasant. this is not generally a problem but i’m usually quiet when i’m in a bad mood. but people don’t take the hint and they get offended when i don’t respond and then i respond and they’re still offended because i’m toxicly mean. hello? i need to not be around people i care about at that time and when you live with people, kind of hard to avoid. so yeah i like living alone. my home is always my home. i can be whoever i want and pretty much noone gets hurt. i’m not the type to blast music at 2am. but when you live with people, you have to curb your behavior and play mental politics about how your mood and activities are going to affect others. what’s the point of being single if you have to take other people into account when you’re at home?
home is where i’m comfortable, the end. so sorry mom and others, i like my life. you think its difficult, i think living with you guys was difficult.
i was supposed to take pictures of different parts of my trip but i got so crabby after spending too much time in the subway system that i’ve tabled it to the part when i start packing